June 30, 2011 in Uncategorized
In the midst of a meeting with the senior manager, one that was planned around my holiday – at 15:49 I missed a call from the Nanny, I saw the call 5mins later and excuse myself from the meeting and called back with my heart in my mouth – as Nanny has never called me at the office before – and then the next 15 minutes went in a blurred panic. Nanny was frantic & emotional on phone, I couldn’t comprehend what she was saying, she was crying a little – I only got “I don’t know what happened to BebeLuv” and I could hear BebeLuv was screaming in the background – I ran into my meeting and requested to leave. The snr mngr was NOT impressed and was rude & wasted 5mins of my time with some mumbling.
I ran to my desk, called a friend to get home to BebeLuv, packed my stuff – whatever I could think off and ran out the door. I drove with my emergency hazards flashing and cried all the way home. I imagined the worst. I wanted to get out of my car and run through robots and traffic. I tried calling DH who was out of town for the day and didn’t get hold of him…I called Nanny again and understood that BebeLuv just got up screaming but nothing happened to her directly, I ordered her to take BebeLuv outside for a walk.
I got home before my friend who lives around the corner did. She came almost 10mins after me…yes I didn’t drive very reponsibly.
I found BebeLuv walking in the garden all smiles & perfectly fine.
I cried from relief. Nanny was shaken and apologetic. Before this episode yesterday, I spoke to nanny earlier in the day & she said BebeLuv had cried a lot in the morning and didn’t go down for her nap easily, but things settled & then not even an hour later all the above drama occurred. Nanny says BebeLuv has never cried as such ever before and she got very worried. I am glad she called me but I’m a bit concerned about her panic. There’s never been an emergency situation thus far and this wasn’t any emergency – I wonder how she would react in an emergency??? She’s normally very competent with BebeLuv, & even when we can’t calm BebeLuv down Nanny has always stepped in and taken charge and handled things. Is this episode just random and acceptable or should I have real concerns about Nanny?
On the upside, BebeLuv is 100% fine and is having a great day today! I on the other hand am in an emotional battle with myself – there’s a lot going on right now with BebeLuv’s clinginess, insecurity and needs & I need to make some decisions – more on that in the next post.