January 31, 2012 in Uncategorized
Motherhood has altered me completely. I’m not the same woman I used to be and I believe I have been changed for the better. My entire existence revolves around my family. My husband and my child.
I watched ’16 and pregnant’ on MTV last night and I was so upset. My heart went out to that poor baby; stuck with a bratty teenage mother who only thinks of herself and her own needs and entertainment. She only wants to party and Grandma is looking after that beautiful, forlorn little baby boy. Now I can’t imagine putting my own selfish needs above Caleb’s. The mother kept complaining about how hard it is to be a mother. How getting up in the middle of the night kills her. And all I could think was ‘if you kept your legs closed like you’re supposed to for another couple of years, you wouldn’t be in this situation’. I also thought ‘oh stop your adolescent bitching, it’s not that hard!’ Her problem was how the baby constantly needed her. And she hated being constantly needed. I love it. I love being my baby’s safe haven. Her problem was constantly feeding and changing her baby. I don’t mind at all. I breastfeed my baby and get to spend quality time with him all day.
This is one of the most important lessons I want to teach my children – if you’re not ready to deal with consequences that will alter your life, don’t do it!! Don’t have sex until you’re ready to deal with what comes afterward!! Be it emotional strain, hurt, pregnancy, an STD… (I’m talking from a teenager perspective). Only dabble with sex if you can handle it!
I may sound horribly judgemental but I can’t help it. Since becoming a mother I’ve become fiercely protective of babies. I can’t stand anyone treating a baby with anything less than devotion, respect and responsibility. I can’t stand anyone talking about their baby like it’s a dog that gets in the way.
I just looked at that girl and wondered how could she talk about giving the baby up for adoption after being his mother for a month… did she not feel any kind of love for him? Luckily she decided to keep the baby and told her mother that she couldn’t do it without her (after telling her mother to f@ck off out of her life – that alone is unacceptable) but I still pity that little baby so much, for being dependant on her.
Sorry, I’m being horrible. Sorry sorry sorry!!
Things are better between me and Hubby. From tonight, we’re taking turns bathing Caleb. I told him this is his child too and I resent the fact that I’m doing almost everything. It’s not just doing a duty like changing a diaper, or bathing the baby. It’s about quality time!! He has to spend quality time with his son. Five minutes of goo-gooing with Caleb is not quality time. We didn’t talk about his stunt with the dummy, but if he ever pulls such a stunt again, there will be consequences that he’s not going to like.
TMI warning – I have a really sore nether region (at the back). The aambui just won’t go away, and now I’ve got a pitsweer type of thing there as well. I get it sometimes, I don’t know why. And getting rid of it is gonna be hard…
Anyhoo, off to change Caleb’s nappy and have some breakfast!
Have a good day!